Living In Sin

words cannot begin to describe how much i miss and love you.. with each silent night that i go through each day, just make myself even lonely than ever..2009 is not a good year for me except i found you that i really love and care about.. how i wish every morning i get to see you once i open my eyes.. with every breath i took i live for you.. having not talking to u and see you really makes my life miserable..

god please bless our love..how i wish to live together with this girl right now..i have no patient to wait for so long for us to be together..each ticking on the clock just kill me like hell..i cant wait no more..i really so miss you that my tears flowing down my cheek formed track of tears.. god..just give me strength to go through each suffering days of being without her..

and please bless her too..with every single prayer that i sent out i hope my love will reach to her..i have nothing to offer to her but with my beating heart..no one will ever understand how i feel and the missin that im going through right now..

i need you more than ever..

mae says:
HoN hOn i cry cry I sad sadi Because I dream You leave me and find other Girls.

RK says:
i wont leave u..i never giv up on u
close together or far apart..u always in my heart mae
hon..dont cry..i wiped ur tears..

RK says:
missing u gets easier everyday because eventhough we are one day further from the last time we met but we are one day closer to the next time we will.. mae i love u.. i miss u i hold u in my heart till i hold u in my arms again mae..

mae says:
Hon i promise i WILL be more consederate When We meet again LaSt time we Met was A big failure for me...But i was glad to meet you

RK says:
hmm..hon..whenever i give my whole heart..i dont expect a return..dont ever think u are not good enough because u always be the most amazing person for me.. hon..i never regret going there to meet u..because the day we met it marks the happiest day of my life..ya the last time we met might not be good enough..but as long as i got you on my side then i ask nothing more than that..i truly love u..

mae says:
HoN..u make me cry ...I want you Now

RK says:
aww...hon..i want u too..

RK says:
mae..words cannot begin to decribe how much i love u and how happy u make me..
u are my world and my everything..
u make me happier than i ever been and with each passing moment i fall deeper in love with u..

aFTER that moment I told him to call me......Then >> He run Out of credit..
But It was really a good conversation....talk about traveling in the future and
get to see each other...awwww~~~

mae says:
Hon I hope By that time Your not busy ...So We can traveL to places I love you I aslo Miss Your voice....

RK says:
how i wish i get to hug u right now..

mae says:
I know Me either..And also touch You

mae says:
that's why I f i work in the bank Soon..I will save Money..also I can take you to Hong Kong and travel..

RK says:
aww..honey..i love u..

mae says:
That's How much I love you..
Even though we see Once in a while I will do the best that I could To make you Glad...

RK says:
me too mae..it means so even much to me because literally we only see each other only once in a while and the memories together will worth even more..

mae says:
I'm so happy because after the Pain and Sorrow I've been Through in my past relationship...wHEN i MET you my heart Got cured..I'm so blessed To have a guy like you..I already found the guy who deserve My life and love which is you....I love you more than you thought Hon....And i will always Love you ..faithfully and Loyalty....I swear with all My heart and Soul..You will be the last who can live in this heart..

RK says:
aww..mae..i would never forget what u said to me forever..because with every words u said, u touched deeply in my heart..

mae says:
And I promise that no one can step in this heart except you...And I hope While giving you this chance..You will take good care of this cleanliness and Pure Heart Of mine....Hon..Please treasure me as much as I do...

RK says:
mae..i treasure u and i treasure everything we have together..

mae says: Even ThOugh were apart ryt Now..I know time will come we will be together ...Because were really true from each other...And I WILL be the happiest person..Ever

RK says: distance never really seperates two hearts that really care..

mae says:
it's So cute imagining having a family with You..also seeing our kids Growing Up with our g o o d Hands...Hon I really Love you So much

RK says:
yah..u know tougher days will come through when time passes and i hope both of us stand strong against any obstacles that coming through our way..

mae says:
You make me get insane with You....I'm really crazy...I love love love love love you ...Muah muah muah ....I love this conversation We have now..It's really true....Expressing this feelings I have makes Me MORE happier.....My heart Beat So fast....

RK says: hmm..i love expressing feelings to you because it reminds me how much i love you.. and it also gives me a peace of mind that the person i love love me too..i never gonna forget this day..i dont want this moment to ever end..

mae says:
You know We are one of the mOSt happiest couple..hihihihihh I hope this won't enD...I promise I won't give up on yOu..UnLESS UNLESS you said So.........Randy Only ever

RK says:
lol we are a perfect couple, we're just not in the perfect situation..i love u mae..

mae says:
every moment I read Your messages..I'm getting Blind...Because I'm so much in love with You RK``` fLOWERS fOR mY LOVE...mY HEART IS bLOODY as that flower..You make me More Blooming Hon..The more Love you gave the More happiness I GET..

RK says:
aww..mae..ive always love u..im glad that i finally find a person that truly love me and as much as i do love her..

mae says:
My heart is crushing for you....loving You is the greatest gift..

RK says:
haha..yah...u r right..it feels the same way for me too..

mae says:
xie xie lao tian
Wo zhao Dao ni le
Gen Wo zai yi qi
Wo xi wang gen ni yong yuan za yi qi
Ni shi wo De Wo shi ni deWo bu hui rang ni zou.....
Wo de ai, Zhi you ni zai wo xin li....

He actually corrected Some of the words I said...ahahah~~~

RK says:
ha..good..muax..mahal kita
Ako'y sayo magtiwala ka lang sa akin
im so so so so glad to hear that..ur presence in my life makes myself feels so completed

RK says:
thank you mae because u make my morning beautiful and im driven to do all the things i need to do today..

after all this conversation I decided To Copy and paste them Here..
Because This was One Of our Greatest conversation we had..
I just want to share all this...
Just enjoy reading .. xie xie~~~

guess everyone knew about it already..fuh..even i myself not sure whats going on..maybe i just cant take it.. all these time, i thought im strong in relationship stuffs.. i thought i will be fine if anything happens and i will just move on the next day..i dominate a relationship but guess im just not strong enough this time.. im at the weakest when im with you..the moment im with you marks the happiest day in my life..we may have been seeing each other for few days but nothing can ever top this..i remember exactly everything that happened when im with you.. the memories are so vivid..

thought i could take it..ha.. the moment i realized everything, im sitting in front of my computer and have a few clicks on it..and i just dont know what happen i just break down into tears..crying like a baby begging for you..my housemates got shocked and no one can do anything for me..the living room was vacant then and left only me.. who dares to touch me that time?

all thats ever left now is pieces of memories..im happy that at least i have a moment with you. im so glad with that..what could i ask for more...got a bath few hours later and once im alone i just cant stand the pain..i did cry like hell..the next day morning i wasnt able to go college.. im emotionally unstable..cry.. i never knew i would have these days.. all the time ive been telling my friends that i hope to love a person so much that when something really happens and i would cry like dying for her.. guess this time i really got it..and whats most important is i just found someone that i really love and someone that cant be with me..i will keep what i promised you..im still hugging along the hope that we still be able to be together..

yah..i may have been Overly “in love” but whatever..this is what i treasure most though..

RK TO CG..

Studying? not really..i guess its more of missing a person..

Distance means so little when someone means so much.

i know its been tough lately because we don't get to see each other. These few days we may have been less communicating with each other but still i want you to know that i love you. i always wanted to be the guy that can provide shelter, the guy that you can lean on when you are in trouble and the guy that you will come to in any conditions. i never miss replying any single of your message because all the time i am waiting for you. You have been in my mind for all the time, every minutes every seconds and i wish nothing more than seeing you again and that to the ultimate is living together with you. No matter where i go i will always be in love with you. Our time together may have been short like for only a few days but the memories together with you is so much more vivid than any other memories i have in my mind. That is something that cannot be taken away or replaced by other things. Whenever i read back what you wrote in my blog, im always touched by it. How much love could i give to you as all the love im pouring in is just for you. How could i possibly not love you. Its something that wont happen and my heart always belong to you. Trust is what matter most right now, and i always want you to trust me and i always try hard to get even more trust, i will not do anything that will breakdown the trust. I just so want to be the guy for you. I just love you so much.

I thought of you today when I looked up at the sunset in the sky.
Cause when I was still at home that use to be something we loved to see together.
I felt you near today when I watched our favorite movie all by myself.
And then I smiled today when I saw my favorite picture of us.

I know Im so far away from you
But I know I dont have to search high and low to see you again.

No matter where I go, no matter where Ill be youll be here always.
Cause its our memories that tag along with me and thats all I need -
Thats all I need..

Its so easy missing you cause youre going through my head a million times a day.
But Im okay when you say youre doing the exact same thing.
I know Im so far away from you
But I know I dont have to search high and low to see you again.

No matter where I go, no matter where Ill be youll be here always.
Cause its our memories that tag along with me and thats all I need -
Thats all I need..

Ooooh
Ooooh..

No matter where I go, no matter where Ill be youll be here always.
Cause its our memories that tag along with me and thats all I need -
Thats all I need
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